Have you ever considered studying to become a Spiritual Medium. Some folks ask me if this is not a talent that you are born with. Indeed some people have specific gifts from birth. Clairvoyance (clear seeing) or clairsentience (clear hearing) are two possibilities but many folks wi th practice, usually at a psychic development class can become a psychic medium.
One of the joys of becoming a medium is the association with your colleagues who are also on the path to mediumship. These folks are usually operating at a higher vibration and attempting to live a metaphysical life. Which means attempting to work on levels of the highest and best behavior. Keeping their homes spiritually clean, working on petitions to create the strongest clear thinking and so much more.
i invite you to begin this adventure!